As time growsSo does our distanceThe memories seem to fadeWith each passing secondA dove flies by my window now and thenI watch in wonder as it flies away againLeaving the memories to return to meAll though I reach I cannot graspFor fear holds me backLove steers me nearBut I throw myself awayI run to her than turn my back and run awayWhen she comes near I hold my heart in my tightly closed handsWanting and wishing that I could let it goFor her to take controlBut once again I find myself backAnd regret returnsAnd I know I cannot take back this mistake I madeShe is my angel in my nightmareHaunting me is this choice I madeThe choice I make over and over againI threw myself away