Repulsion of beauty drove me to huntA frenzy of self hate possessing meViolated their bodies, stripped of their prideTortured and twisted until they have diedHatred inside is all I would findI despise what I see in the mirrorSadistic hateful scumI kill them but it’s myself I hateNow I’ll do myself tooA straight razor will reshape my faceFirst my ears then my noseBlood is gushing continue to carveErase the face I hateNow I’m hacking at my chestA frenzy of self hate possessing meControls my actions, controls my thoughtsAs I scrape away my skinI fill my tub, with alcoholI plunge in to the burning poolThe pain intense, my whole body is drenched in scalding liquidDespite my pain I am ableTo grab a lighter on the counterThe flint ignites, the flames eruptI’m consumed in the infernoCauterize, my skin is charredRegenerate, more loathsome than beforeI despise what I see in the mirrorSadistic hateful scumThe abomination before my eyesA reflection of meI see an image of disfigured evilI’ve skinned myself aliveDripping with blood and blistered by fire