I caught you caroling and giving griefThought you were cannonballing after meNow that your actions speak for themselvesAnd wished you wellBut youâre a mirror I cannot voidStrung out and jittery and paranoidA leaky battery that canât keep chargedGet in the car and say what you meanExplain yourself to me and Iâll try not to judge you more than you wouldLet me help, I promise not to tellLike anyoneâs asking or anyone shouldFirst time I met you I was full of fearKnew that eventually youâd disappearJust when I needed you to burn to smokeAnd off you goJust come back and peel away the messLay here beside me and open your eyesTake it back your dignity attackedTurn back to the person you tried to let dieI caught you nesting with your antelopeGlassy eyes from kissing poison frogsBecoming infinite against his couchOpen your mouth and say the wordsYou used to wish you heardBack when you focused enough to be goodAnd if youâre goneAn endless false alarmJust remember I loved youAs long as I could