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I have to choose what I detestEither dreaming, which my mind hatesOr action, which my awareness loathesI am confusedI sit alone in silenceTo focus more on the way that I am livingI am losing youAnd this place isn’t comfortableI retaliate by not speakingSo I guess I will loseDetesting both, I choose neitherBut since I mustLire la suite « Detest – A Life Once Lost – letras »

I am repulsed by the lack of dedicationThat you insert into this relationshipCould it be that your head is elsewhereCould it be that you don’t careAll I know is that I am repulsed by the effortlessTeeth missingBut death seems so attractive this time aroundExcitement grows inside of meMaybe now is my timeI have decided thatLire la suite « Firewater Joyride – A Life Once Lost – letras »

I always pictured you with flowers in your hair. dancing in the dry rain. you held color beyond love. yet the sensation to no longer walk in is alive. in my eyes and heart. and all I could ask was for you to love but I am guessing that was even to hard. breaking theLire la suite « Gentle & Elegant – A Life Once Lost – letras »

I am impatient and hard to pleaseNo sense of serenityHabitual neurosis transcends into thoughts of suicideAnd when this body lay lifeless, don’t patronize me byInsisting this was all done because of youI am beyond redemption, even in death I will not speakI am beyond redemption, even in death I will not sleepWith abandonment of trustLire la suite « Ghosting – A Life Once Lost – letras »

These words collapse your confidenceYour destructive existence is nauseatingFake, with no self esteem; you’re nothingYou change with manic uncertaintyNow I will be the masterNow I will choose my boatswainI push myself in and out of relationshipsBut I don’t know youI push myself in and out of controlBut I don’t own youExactly how should I standLire la suite « Grotesque – A Life Once Lost – letras »

This is when panic and shock are given out in dosesThere is nothing to admireAbsent from this present anxiety is liberationMalice now exists inside my headCrush and rebuildDestroy and organizeI stand above looking down on this devastationWords form blindly to express my feelingsAnd these hands work to gather what is lostAnxious thoughtsTorment now exists insideLire la suite « Hunter – A Life Once Lost – letras »

In continue to succumb to mundane hospitalityFabricating pertinent dinner conversationFascinating breath pressing drawlsAsking myself whyUnbelievable isn’t itThe way we twist the words around just to get that quick fixI swore someday I’d save myself fromCum dreamt lines forcing fasterAnd I’ll tease you, tickle your goddamn nod jobAgain asking myself whyAt last, can I please rest?VacateLire la suite « I Give In – A Life Once Lost – letras »

You are worthless and especially ignorant to human lifeWords – gesturesEverything I feel towards your existenceCoexists with the hatred I have for mankindCommon consideration cannot coincide with you and meYou talk to offendAnd you laugh to belittleIt seems likeYou have grown intoSuch a beautiful assholeLife, a headacheThat is keeping me fromBelonging to societyWhat does itLire la suite « Ill Will – A Life Once Lost – letras »

it could have been easier then this. it could have been so much more enjoyable, for the both of us. but it wasn’t right. for me to waste time with you. thinking I even had a chance to make a difference in your life. just forget about it. forget about me. I was only tryingLire la suite « Joan Said Please – A Life Once Lost – letras »

screaming out loud. I loved everyone. I never meant to hurt anyone. just as the nails of so many man before Me, drove through My skin. it seemed to silence His lips. for no one really cared. He then let out a cry that was heard for miles and miles. His love joined in withLire la suite « Just Before His Crucifixion – A Life Once Lost – letras »